迷恋

我曾经以为我是因为你的样子才一直一直迷恋着你，也曾经恨自己的肤浅，为何迷恋你的帅。但我渐渐发觉，你的样子对我来说，根本没有影响。我看过你最憔悴的样子，也看过你最光彩的样子，对我来说，两者皆一样，都是那么的吸引我，因为吸引我的是你的魄力。

对我来说，你是帅的，绝对是帅的，还是最帅的那个。

我很想念你

也很感谢你

你是我的动力

相信自己

使别人相信自己，你成功了，一半；

真正的成功是使别人也相信他自己。

就是喜欢你

你别傻笑

对着我，你就只会傻笑

整天傻笑

但我就是喜欢你的笑

喜欢看你傻笑

就是喜欢这样的你

LOVE Is In The Air

The guy who loves me the most in this world. I love you Dad.
My mom, she is cool huh :P I love you mom.
Whooo, another Princess Gorgeous in our family, my sister !!
Prince Charming, he loves me, hahaha.

My oxygen, because I can't live without her. Sandra
The shittest shit, hahaha. But you know I love you more than I can say. Belle
And of course both of you, Jacq and Cindy. Girls, you're just meant too much to me.
Someone who never absent in my friend list, even in my contact list she is the first one :D Ahsun!
The special one. He's always so charming and attractive. Mr. Nee Yew Ming.
I love myself, and everyone above. I Love Life

逆境中成长

如果有注意到我blog最底部的，一定会看到这张照片

它，不是我从网上载下来的

是实地取景的

就在我家庭院里的鱼池

当时要清理而把水都抽完上来

整个底部是如此的肮脏

几天后，我们竟意外地发现了这个情景

其中一个角落长出了一颗很漂亮的幼苗

当时我们全家都为之而感动

在如此肮脏，光秃秃几乎一片黑的鱼池里

竟然长出了一颗如此健康，漂亮的绿色小生命

我把它放在我blog里

因为它给我的是一种提醒

提醒我逆境未必是绝望

反而逆境中的成长能使我更加的强大，突出，闪耀

不是吗？

为何我会注意到它

就是因为在那一片黑的鱼池底

它的出现就显得它是多么的突出和闪耀

想想下

如果他是出现在一片绿油油的草丛中

我们会发现它吗？

我们会注意到它吗？

把它放在blog的底部，

因为我要告诉自己

就算走到尽头

不等于绝望

逆境中的尽头

当然更不能绝望

既然在逆境中你已经走到尽头

那就表示你已经尝尽所有的苦

再也没有什么可以难倒你

再说，逆境已经去到尽头

再踏出一步就是春天的开始了

永远不要害怕逆境

把逆境当朋友

它可以使你强大

逆境，是你踏往成功之路的阶梯

真正属于我们的世界

很难得我们没有聊起安利，平时在电话里，他总是滔滔不绝的跟我谈论安利，或者可以这样说，他对我说的话，一定不会脱离安利。真的真的非常难得，今天我们并没有提起安利，我们讲的，是很生活化的话题。那天晚上，我想在他生日结束之前打电话给他亲自对他说声“生日快乐”，但是我没有这个勇气这么做，因为这样做好像有点点超越了我们现在的关系，我似乎不应该在我们这种关系里有这样的举动。但偏偏的在半夜两点多时，我在线上遇到了他，也许我真的很想与他分享我生活里的点点滴滴，所以我把这件事告诉了他。没想到我竟然得到意外的答复，他说：yer, call me tomolo k? good night shao wen. 我从来没有想过他会这么说，受宠若惊。所以今天我选在他lunch time的时候打给他。聊得就像是一个朋友会聊的话题，完全没有上线和下线的关系存在。他提起Marcus，他问我为什么没有买给他，他鼓励我赶快找回自信... 虽然他正在吃着午餐，但是却没有赶着要挂电话的感觉。

很感谢你对我的好，至少没有令我难堪。对你，我也抱了一份感恩的心，谢谢你给的一切，谢谢你给我机会去爱你。我不会令你难做，我会把你放在心里的某个角落，好好的珍惜你。

快乐.很简单

人的一生，不断地在追求，寻寻觅觅的，追求的是什么？

大部分的人甚至不懂他们这辈子在努力耕耘着些什么，只是盲目的忙碌，忙碌得变盲目。就算得到了钱，他们却感到空虚，为什么？

因为他们忘记了笑。

我对笑的定义很高，只有从内心发出来的笑，才是真正的笑。

一个微笑，就可以打开身体内的开关；

一微笑，就可以改变全世界

每个人都可以拥有让自己笑的理由，我每天都会笑，因为我看见我爸爸妈妈，我看见我弟弟妹妹，我觉得能当他们的家人是我最幸福的事。不管我在外面遇到多大的挫折，回到家，他们总能给我一个温暖的笑容，让我把不愉快的事忘得一干二净。

当然，当我想起你的时候，总是藏不住那份甜蜜的心，嘴角偷偷的上扬。虽然我们什么都不是，你也不曾做过什么让我觉得甜蜜的事，但是想起你时，我还是一样会微笑。

能喜欢你，我已觉得很甜蜜

能想念你，我就觉得很幸福

这世界真美好

记得，当我们发生不愉快的事，仔细想想，五年后回头看看这件事，其实是微不足道的，当下的你又何必执着。

所以，大家跟我一起笑吧，去寻找让你们微笑的理由~

每天爱你自己多一些

我承认我太过依赖别人了，我都靠别人来肯定自己，别人投一个异样的眼神在我身上，我就会开始怀疑我自己，别人批评我，我的信心就会动摇。我就是那么的没自信，没有自信因为我不够爱我自己。

要别人肯定自己，首先我必须先肯定我自己；要别人欣赏我，首先我必须先欣赏我自己；要别人来爱我，首先我必须先爱我自己。

星期一那天，我再次鼓起勇气去见更多更多的人。虽然是瘦了，但是我承受的是一种“你胖了”的眼光，甚至有人开口说“喂，你好像胖了喔”。再次地接受打击，当时真的好想回家，好想找个洞钻，所以动作很不自然，不断地拉衣服，遮东遮西，盖了上面，又拉下面，想让整件衣服盖着自己，想干脆遮住脸好了。这不就是鸵鸟心态吗？有用吗？何不坦然面对？

谢谢Marcus你那句话提醒了我：

“你做么这样不自然，你越遮人家就越注意你”

是的，动作越多，人家就越注意我。既来之，则安之，好好的享受这个美好的夜晚吧。当我这样想的时候，好的事反而降临，泽彬走来告诉我 “ShaoWen，你这样穿很好看，哇，今天的妆很美，换发型？很好看，越来越美了。” 谢谢你泽彬，只有你注意到我的改变，的确我换了化妆的方法，换了发型，也尝试了我不曾穿的服装，感谢你的细心。就在泽彬走后我就看到Marcus走往我的方向来，说要载我，但是我没有跟他，因为我想争取一件我想了很久要做的事情。所以就在Marcus走后，我要求了有铭载我。对，和有铭在车里独处是我梦寐以求的，我想让他载。不知他是否愿意，但是我争取到了，而且还有bonus，知道了他的家在哪里。

我就是要这种感觉，朋友的感觉，一个你会关心的朋友，而不是因为你要我发展安利所以才对我好，这种好实在是太讽刺了。是吗？你对我的好是哪一种？是朋友之间的关心，还是你关心pv所以关心我？我害怕知道答案，所以我把它当作朋友的好。当天晚上，我过得很愉快，因为我知道我离成功又迈进一步了。

至于批评我的朋友，谢谢你们的批评，因为你们会激励我向上。我反而喜欢你们的坦白，因为有时太好的朋友反而不敢指出我的缺点，任由我放纵。你们大家都是我的贵人，此生有你们真好。

I Love Living Life. I am Happy

我在成功的路上

我自从六年级那年，体重就上了六字头，一直都没有瘦过下来，没有试过瘦是什么滋味。虽然口中一直喊减肥减肥，但是行动上还是不停的吃吃吃。虽然肥，但是还是有追求者，所以根本没有担心过什么。直到去年年头，当我的体重差不多要跌回五字头的时候，突然间的，身边的追求者和朋友们一个一个离我而去，撑到了年尾，我终于一发不可收拾的跌入谷底，自暴自弃，暴饮暴食。尤其今年的4月至7月，我经历了人生的低潮。我害怕面对人，我逃避所有人，我不敢接听任何来电，甚至我的死党。整天把自己锁在家里，锁在房里，连网也不敢上。

幸好，上天没有放弃我，它让我再次有了微弱的意志力，就那么一点点的意志力，我什么都不管，要让自己瘦下来，就算那么一点点也好。因为我不能再这样下去，我必须站起来。就这样，我赶在Sandra和Belle的生日之前，让自己瘦下来。我用我自己的方法，自己的信念，果真，我瘦了，体重76。我不知道我之前的体重去到多少，因为我连照镜子的勇气也没有，何况量体重。

关闭了自己这么久，踏出家门口的我竟然是那么的生疏，世界和身边的人变得很陌生。我用了很大的勇气才肯见人，一见面的人，就是对我很重要的人，Sandra, Cindy, 泽彬, 有铭，这些都是我很在乎的人，我真的很怕让他们看到这样的我。虽然很不自在，当我庆幸他们都接受了我，甚至有铭对我很好，并没有因为我的外表而令我难堪。所以我下了很大的决心，把自己调整过来。

我的决心和信念让我认识了Marcus，或许这就是吸引力法则，我想要什么，什么就来。Marcus把正确的健康观念传授给我，也教了我一套简单的养生方法。第一个星期，我的体重就下了5kg，我真的很兴奋，因为我不止创造了奇迹，或许也正在改变我的一生。如果有那么一天我真的完完全全瘦下来，Marcus我会感谢你，谢谢你的支持和关心。还有一位相当重要的人物，他让我的信念更加坚定，他让我重拾信心，每当难题一出现，想起他，难题也就不再是难题。谢谢你，有铭，虽然你并没有做些什么，但是你的存在就是一种鼓励。

生日快乐

我从来都没有忘记过你的生日，甚至不断地想要怎样帮你庆祝，怎样给你最好的，但是我就是缺乏一种自信而在你面前充足的表现我自己。

129
1月29

12日9月

129 是我喜欢的数字

也是我们的生日

我不断地寻找我们之间的共同点，努力的达到思想上的同步。我没有想过要讨好你，来吸引你的注意，因为那样会失去我自己。我希望是因为我做回我自己，才吸引你。

送一首歌给你 《生日快乐》

os: 每一年在你的生日，我縂是想成爲第一個祝福你的 人，就算我不能給你幸福，但是 我都想祝你生日快樂！

仿佛你就在 我身边
等待了一年 又一年
对你的思念
三百六十五天
我只等 这一天
勇敢地 把从前
情人节快乐
变成
祝你生日快乐
I LOVE YOU
说不出口的倾诉
I MISS YOU
让挂念 代替了 相处
瞬间是永远 感情变祝福
可惜 甜言也带苦
I LOVE YOU
是最完美的结束
I MISS YOU
一辈子 靠今天 接触
瞬间是永远 感情变祝福
可惜 都于事无补
今夜 有人陪你庆祝
不枉 我一年的孤独
请你 原谅我 不多写一个字
像 普通人糢糊
多一字 多份痛
今夜 我不想哭
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You

惟有在这一天，我才能对你倾诉我的感觉

惟有在这一天，我才能大大方方的把你占有

惟有在这一天，我能勇敢地告诉你，我喜欢你

Yew Ming, Happy Birthday to You~

展翅高飞

我要释放自己的潜能，我要展翅高飞，我要飞在高高的天空，让所有人都看得到我，我不愿再关在这小小的空间，我要冲破障碍，突破自我，飞向高峰！！

我要飞翔

我要自由

我要随心所欲

我想，我会有坦白的一天

或许心情很复杂，太多说不出的话，秘密在心中萌芽，问题找不到解答，我永远都在这里听着你说...悄悄话...

My little brother

The special moment

Thank you mommy and daddy

See, he is so happy :)

His favourite

I'm proud to be your sister, love you

=)

I have heard Tea Theater for quite some time already, but then didn't get the chance to watch it. Finally, Amy invited me to go with her to support her brother since her brother is also my friend and he is one of the actor in the drama. And I asked Belle to go with me.

This drama is very interesting and impressive, especially when the actors were kissing in front of us, all of us just cant stop shouting, and the main thing was, both of them are guy. They are really good.

Ahfai(he talk very loud), XuanShan(actor), Mark(阮经天), Ahwing(he is cute)

Belle darling, I hate you, you always want me to say those yuk ma things, it's very embarrassing. But I still heart you to the max, you make my life one step closer to perfect.

Happening March

I had a very happening March

First of all, I finished my finals at the first week of this month, and I know I will pass all the subjects, so nothing to worry about

The second week, I went the MUS in Genting

the only photo in my camera

Third week, detox camp

and finally, parties...

one of da party we went, Set Fui's 21st birthday

i don't like to write too much, pictures will do

心.情

无意中发现你很可爱

对我有种莫名的吸引力

喜欢听你的声音

有种模糊的伤风声

喜欢看你说话的样子

因为你充满自信

喜欢呆在你身边

因为你稳重

我.想念你

Every Woman is Beautiful

A little boy asked his mother 'Why are you crying?'

'Because I'm a woman,' she told him.

'I don't understand,' he said.

His mum just hugged him and said, 'And you never will'

Later the little boy asked his father,
'Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?'

'All women cry for no reason,' was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man,

still wondering why women cry..

Finally he put in a call to God;
and when God got on the phone,
he asked, 'God, why do women cry so! easily?'

God said: 'When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world;
yet, gentle enough to give comfort'

'I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth
and the rejection that many times comes from her children'
'I gave her a hardness that allows

her to keep going when everyone else gives up,
and take care of her family through sickness
and fatigue without complaining '
'I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any
and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly'

'I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults
and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart'

'I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife,
but sometimes tests her strengths
and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly'

'And finally, I gave her a tear to shed.
This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.'

'You see: The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.'!

'The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes,
because that is the doorway to her heart
* the place where love resides.'

Be proud to be yourself

Previously, I was always very dissatisfied with my body, my appearance. Food was the only thing that can comfort my mind, my soul. So the more I dislike them, the more I eat. I started to avoid every single activities, outing, event and etc. I was the anti-social freak. The past few days, I have seen a lot, and think a lot. Finally a voice inside my heart was saying : "Shaowen, wake up! This is your life and you gotta live it, you are the only director in your life, you are the one who gonna paint your life with colors." I was like awake from a really long dream.

I am fat, so what? I have the almost same figure as Beyonce, women in USA think this is SEXY. I can still bring out the self-confidence with my big-sized body. I am proud of my body, my figure. Well, this doesn't mean I am gonna stop my slimming programme, I will still keep on my slimming programme because I want to be perfect. I have been told by my CA : No one is perfect, but we can pursue perfection. Yes I want to pursue perfection.

I am the only me in this world, if I don't love myself, who does? I am the unique one, because you would never have the smile I had :)

To A Special You

Before I met you, everyone was telling me how handsome you are, and when I first saw you, I was like " this call handsome?", LOL. I still don't think you are handsome. But, you look smart, I like you in your suit and coat. I like your smile, it brighten up my day. I like your shyness, because you look so cute. When you are playing sport games, you are just so hot. When you are working, the earnest look attracted me.

You are the special one for me, I don't love you, but I like you, I like the way you being yourself. I won't get jealous when other girls talked to you, I won't get jealous when you say other girls are pretty..but I feel upset if you are not paying attention on me.

I don't want to be your gf, but I wish to be your close friend. I wish to know everything about you, at least you would think of me when you are sad. I want to share everything with you in my life. I want to be the one who support you every moment, I am the one who will not mad to you, and always show you my smiling face. I could be your clown when you need some laughter. I will always be there for you.

You are the motivation for me. I miss you..

It's all about L.O.V.E

The journey starts from L.O.V.E

the G.A.N.G.Z

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

partnership. P.A.S.S.I.O.N.A.T.E

L.E.A.D.E.R.S.H.I.P

Boyz L.I.K.E girls

love M.E.M.O.R.I.E.S

I jump like no one is around. F.R.E.E.D.O.M

With Doc. Sam. A.D.M.I.R.A.T.I.O.N

Four of us. LOVE you all to the max

I love myself

Assignment. L.I.F.E.S.T.Y.L.E

Dinner with Ken Chong. F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P

Lunch with my Family. E.V.E.R.L.A.S.T.I.N.G.L.O.V.E

L.O.V.E_S.E.X.Y_F.R.E.E.D.O.M_P.A.S.S.I.O.N.A.T.E

Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends

First of all, I want to say Happy Valentine's day to all of you !

for those who single like me would probably forget about this because it was exactly the same day with the first day of our chinese new year.

I treat 14th of Feb like nothing, so let's talk about CNY !

It's chinese new year again,

and this is the only festival that I can do whatever I wanted to

I can eat like crazy people, excuse: it's cny ma

I can shop like mad people, excuse: cny weih, I need new shirt

I can ask for more money, excuse: uncle auntie, gong hei fatt choi ( then ang pow given)

I can ask for more holidays, excuse: I go back hometown

I can ask for wine, poker, mahjong, excuse: these are part of cny

and it's da chance for me to meet his parent, excuse: I want to go your house bai nian

:)

My lovely sister and I

This made me think, how bout you

Read each one

carefully and think

about it a second or

two

1. I love you not

because of who you

are, but because of

who I am when I am

with you..

2. No man or woman

is worth your tears,

and the one who is,

won't make you cry.

3. Just because

someone doesn't love

you the way you want

them to, doesn't mean

they don't love you

with all they have.

4. A true friend is

someone who reaches

for your hand and

touches your heart.

5. The worst way to

miss someone is to be

sitting right beside

them knowing you

can't have them.

6. Never frown, even

when you are sad,

because you never

know who is falling in

love with your smile..

7. To the world you

may be one person,

but to one person you

may be the world.

8. Don't waste your

time on a man/woman,

who isn't willing to

waste their time on

you.

9. May be God wants

us to meet a few

wrong people before

meeting the right one,

so that when we

finally meet the

person, we will know

how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because

it is over, smile

because it happened.

11. There's always

going to be people

that hurt you so what

you have to do is keep

on trusting and just be

more careful about

who you trust next

time around.

12. Make yourself a

better person and

know who you are

before you try and

know someone else

and expect them to

know you.

13. Don't try so hard,

the best things come

when you least expect

them to.

REMEMBER:

WHATEVER

HAPPENS, HAPPENS

FOR A REASON.

I found something interesting in my college

College is a place that we make new friends,

learn how to social，

how to communicate with people,

before we step into this society

well I admit I'm not so good in communicating with people

I'm sucks in this

I lost contact with my high school friends

I lost contact with my primary school friends

how sad right ??

The first day I step into this college

I told myself not to do that again,

I have to learn how to communicate with people

but somehow

there are still some people I don't feel like get close with them

i kept thinking was that my problem

and have been emo for about 1 sem time..

until the day i found something interesting in my college

she is very disgusting, but i heart her

we always scold each other, but i still heart her

she is very very rude, and i still heart her lots ( hahahahaha)

this is the power of love

we found out we have same thoughts

we have the same hobbies

we have same type of figure ( well hers is actually better than mine)

and we decided to start a plan

diet !

it has been one month++ we didn't have meal together

how suffer !!! :(

we chewed Lecithin-E in class

we drink fruit juice

we detoxed..

Oh ya, she is my soul mate in sing k

we sing like no one is around us

we shout, we scream, we dance, we jump

and we shopped

1u , the curve, cineleisure, bangsar, sungai wang

Belle, I heart you much

my love to u is a continues tense

The Jan

Time flies..
it's a brand new year and I have my new year resolutions:

• achieve certain level in my career
• do well in my diploma with flying colors
• upgrade myself ( the inner beauty)
• be slimmer !!

"If you failed in planning, you are plan to fail"
my dad always told me about this

I actually understand but I didn't apply in my life

and seems quite a mess in my life without doing planning for the previous year
so in this brand new 2010, I ma gonna start doing planning

Plan for my career
I'm very confident towards myself that I'm gonna get 21% within this year

and actually i plan to qualify DD within my diploma
I'm gonna achieve it, I'm gonna do it!

Plan for my studies
yep, no any failing in diploma will do
but still wish there is a 3 or above in my CGPA

Plan for the inner beauty

read more, see more, speak more, learn more

Plan for slimming

I'm very excited when it comes to the slimming part !

I know this is gonna be a new challenge for me and i'm gonna overcome it

I have the faith on me myself

55kgs is now my target !

go for it

and I enjoy slimming !

Say Hi to The Pursuit of Happiness

Say hi to my new blog !

I wanted to start a blog since long time ago, but I'm lazy..

and I don't know a blog can meant so much to a blogger
but finally I've been inspired by my soh po- BELLE

I started to fall for blog and read through all my friends' blogs..

Now, this is the place I share my life with you

this is the place you can see my improvement
Here，there will be no secret